Already or Only?

Little A is 5 months old today, and my brain cannot figure out if it should think in terms of "Already five months old?" or "Only five months old?"

The little weasel wiggled his way into my heart, into our lives, and nestled in it, as if he's always been there. I guess he knew he always belonged.

Before he was born, and especially when I knew it was another boy, I thought to myself that he was an unlucky one. I wondered to myself(maybe like many mothers out there) how possible is it that he will get the same love, affection, attention, that inexplicable feeling I have when I look at D. I honestly could not find any place in my heart for more, yes, I admit it, love! I thought, and the key word here is "thought" that my heart was full, to the rim.

What I didn't realize that, the reason I thought it was full, was because there was this "love capsule" that was in my heart... and it was sealed. And when A was born, the same Milli-second he came to this world, God unsealed it, and all that love poured out... and it is still flowing.

Five months ago, A came into my life, and I knew he's the one I wanted all along. He is the only one who can belong. He is the piece of the puzzle we never knew was missing.